Well today is going alright. Not super but not devastating either (Like last monday oi!)
There are a few major hurdles before me this week….
BUT let’s skip that for now and start with the good.
1) I wrote a VERY hard email to a friend today. I do not presume she will respond, but doing the right thing and getting my feelings off my chest feels GOOD.
2) I started the day with an EMPTY inbox (because I was a good worker Friday 🙂 ) and will have an empty one when I leave today.
3) I had an AMAZING weekend with my man. We went out: dinner with friends, then Dancing all night to Sharon Jones & the Dap Kings. Bit of a meltdown before leaving the house…. but we talked about why I was anxious.. and then made some plans to combat those anxieties.. then had a real good time.. Who woulda thunk it?
As for the bads… I have to go to my GP today to have her fill out a physician statement for my upcoming practicum. I am feeling very uneasy about the whole situation as last time I saw her she made me literally grovel for meds….. Also I am feeling a bit unsure of how to approach “coming out” to my teachers and the school, as a large portion of this physician statement is regarding mental health.
If I have her sign off.. does that mean I am signing away my rights to mental health support.. Do I go and fake an appointment and hide my fears so as to get a good report? If I don’t does that mean I can’t work with children? I know legally employers cannot discriminate because of mental health issues, but when it comes to children.. are the rules different? If I go in admitting I struggle with things others do not struggle with.. does that mean I can no longer participate?
This of course is why we need to push against the discrimination of mental illness, but do I want my career path to be the path I push this fight down?